She did not see the same in me as we did not fall into each other's arms and fall instantly in life vet with each other.
It took a bit of my moxie to get her to agree to go out with me. She finally agreed.
The times we had together we're some of the best times I've ever had in my life. This girl, I mean This woman and I had truly found a one of a kind love.
Fast forward a bit.
She's a mover and a shaker. She got promoted to this, she got promoted to that.
She had moved from our town, to here, then there.
She had asked me to move there. I considered it. I did not.
She would come back to where we had met, and mostly I would see her. The other times I didn't I wished I would have.
For the last time I saw her, she had found a new love, in the place where we lived, even though she still lived there.
It was something of a blow to me. Some other man, had been willing to date her long distance from the same place I lived.
It killed me. Why hadn't I? WHY HAD'NT I!?!
I have never tried to date long distance. It scared me. I did not think I could do it. After thinking about it, I believe I should have tried.
Fast forward a bit.
I was done. Over it. It was the fall, and I had been working at a job that allowed me to transfer to anywhere in the world. I was in. I was ready.
I was tired of being alone.
I had decided to apply to any job in my company, that was anywhere but here. I told the ones that needed to know.
I gave up. I said fuck it. I like to say that. Usually it works.
The funny thing is, when I say that, things will change. I have realized that whenfaced with a problem, I am unable to deal with it, until I remove myself from it.
Like a good man once said, it's difficult to see the pile of shit while you are standing in it.
I agree.
When I removed myself from my issues, things started to take place.
For lack of the most convenient terms, my life was happening, all around me.
God was showing me the answers I was seeking.
Randomly.
Finally! I began to see what was happening. When I did, itwas a windfall of information. It all made sense.
I smiled a gregarious grin. I had found my future.
The phone rang, I answered.
It was her, yes her!
She told me she was back in the town we met in. We agreed to meet.
I figured it was another time she was back for a week or so, so I was excited to see her. I always am.
We met, after some directionally impaired calls/call backs, she arrived.
When I saw her pull up in Levi. My heart dropped, just a little. She got out and walked towards me looking as lovely as ever in a big white sweater and fantastically tight blue jeans. We hugged. I gave her a kiss on her forehead. We exchanged pleasantries.
Over drinks she told me stories. The one that stood up, stood out, and completely resonated with me was this. Let me set this up: She was the most driven person I had ever met. She worked hard. She always had. She had worked through beating cancer as a child. This drove her more than anything. In her adult life, she took that and kicked ass. It carried her to where she wanted to be in her career.
One time, back in the day, I had mentioned that life was not about what you do, but about the relationships you have with those you love.
She asked me to show her how to enjoy her life. She realized, after she had gotten to where she wanted to be, her house was a little cold and lonely she wanted to live her life and have fun.
I agreed to show her.
Over the next few months I made it my job, to show her just that.
I have also decided she is the one for me.
I call her everyday.
I am ready to show her with actions not words, what love is.
There was one, but he has showed his cards. I know she loved him. However the proof is in the pudding.
I know it's hard to let go.
However, if you let go, and love me, I will show you things you didn't think were possible.
I'm going to love you anyhow, so you can wait and see.
I am he, I have always been yours.
Kate, l love you
